March 5, 2007

I woke up early this morning without alarm, without fatigue and without hesitation to get up this new day and live life with my personal best.

This past weekend I repeated my 're-energize Maria' routine….I spent the entire morning in my pajamas while cycling hours of spiritual readings, reflective writings and deep sleeping/dreaming until early afternoon! (Imagine having a water bottle, a book and a journal while sleeping every 30 minutes because of fatigue) This Saturday however, was extra-ordinary to me…

This Saturday I came back to myself.

6 months ago I had a boyfriend and lived happily in the bustling city of San Francisco. 6 days ago, I was anxiously prepared to purchase a new condo and continue working professionally with 24 Hour Fitness Corporate. Today, however...I have none of that.

Today, I abandoned ambitious aspirations to be who I was 'influenced to become' as a little girl….today, I am exactly where I want to be: Living a Simple life and making efforts to utilize my in-born talents to create a path designed by my own will. 

The truth is: that while I was feeling unappreciated, unprotected and unmotivated in my work and social environments…in that same effort, I was also unchallenged mentally, physically and spiritually. Repetitive cycles that led to no progression was weaning on my natural, competitive energy to move fast towards a meaningful goal. While I was moving - I instinctively knew that I was going towards a path not destined for myself.

This new path is not planned, nor has it been walked before…I have a distinctive light that will guide me to reveal a vision I see regarding charity, unity and spirituality. As I spoke to one of my dearest mentors, Chuck, he reassured me that: "…While I have much Courage, it is my Conviction that has led me to choose this new route."

Thank you Chuck.

One of my favorite poems is written by Robert Frost. I encourage all of you to read it well and understand the truth behind walking a life you alone have courage to live.

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth.

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same.

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference. 

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I added rss feed links to fitnesscure.com as well as a donations page for those interested in supporting the site and helping the elderly. Have a blessed week everyone!

I sat at the table with the rock climber's and "S Factor" class mates! I feel inclined to do both in the next few months.

My friend in fitness, Minji Wong!

 

This is my poor attempt in trying to catch the full moon on Saturday. It was bronze colored due to the lunar eclipse this past weekend!

On weekends I wake up around 2/3pm. Seriously! This is my preferred look: hair back, headband, minimal make up and t-shirts! Here's an impromptu car shot on my way to visit Tiger.